Tuesday, October 9, 2012

You Lost Me

In sharing light since 2007, it has been difficult to blog real emotion at times because hurt, loss, and sadness can sometimes confuse me. Anger, and lashing out has been my way. I am good at it.

As most of you know 2012 has been the most trying year for me. From sickness, to being sick of the lies from my own family drama.

However...

The past few months has truly brought me to a new light.

Letting go, surrender.

The interesting part of this blog post.  I am okay.  Honestly, truly, okay.

Acceptance that you cannot choose who loves you. You cannot force them to step up, to care about you. Heck, you can't force them to reach out and check on you!  Why did I try? Why did I allow them to hurt me over and over again.  I checked my phone, my email, nothing.

It wasn't until I realized that in the end, they wanted me to walk away, that I stopped shedding tears.

And guess what?  I am happier.  I am healthier.  My true friends have seen the difference in me, my attitude, my smile, my laughter. 

You lost me.  And I gained my life back.

Thank you.

Kimmy

Sharing light with Kimmy. Striving to create a path between the present course of events and a new course; leading to new outcomes.

1 comment:

  1. Good for you Kim, I know it's hard but sometimes it's all you can do to survive, let go of all that is hurtful and hold onto what is not, and in that you will find your true self, your true happiness!
    Love ya,
    Janet :)

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