Saturday, August 18, 2012
The concept of "Letting Go", and to be able to "Free Yourself", from your own mind has proven to be the hardest hurdle I have faced in forty years.
2012 has been a very trying year for me. This past month has shown me that no matter how hard I try, some aspects of life are not in my control. Acceptance of that fact is difficult for me. In my feeble mind, there should always be a solution to a particular problem. The realization came that I might not be a part of said solution.
But then why do I "feel" like I should be?
Plain and simple. Ego.
I have always been given the task in my own house to "figure things out". Even when I am told to let life just play out, I assume my family is just waiting for me to come up with the answers. When I have the answer, and no one is listening, Lord only knows why I get so anxious and frustrated! lol. It's my own fault!
Taking it minute by minute, hour by hour, and day by day, has proven to be better for me in the past week or so. When I saw the above picture, I understood. I cannot pretend to let go, and still try to control. I have to completely Free MYSELF of the burdens that I PLACE ON MYSELF.
Sharing light with Kimmy. Striving to create a path between the present course of events and a new course; leading to new outcomes.