Monday, December 12, 2011
Why am I so stressed and exhausted? Because it seems that if I don't referee communication in my family, extended and non extended, nothing is said, and I live in silence.
Which for me is a fate worse than death.
In order to stop being the mediator, I have to learn to accept the silence, as it is not mine to control. I can feel the energy waves in the room, and it is like a boxing ring, or worse, a Soap Opera drama atmosphere.
It's only 6pm, and I wish to just go to bed, and escape this silence.
Do I feel the others in the room, wanting me to break the silence and open the lines up? Is that my duty, my job, my destiny? lol.
OR.. do I publish this post, and get some chocolate chip COOKIES!!!
Sharing light with Kimmy. Striving to create a path between the present course of events and a new course; leading to new outcomes.