Monday, December 12, 2011

Communication Breakdown

Exhausted.

Why am I so stressed and exhausted? Because it seems that if I don't referee communication in my family, extended and non extended, nothing is said, and I live in silence.

Which for me is a fate worse than death.

In order to stop being the mediator, I have to learn to accept the silence, as it is not mine to control. I can feel the energy waves in the room, and it is like a boxing ring, or worse, a Soap Opera drama atmosphere.

It's only 6pm, and I wish to just go to bed, and escape this silence.

Do I feel the others in the room, wanting me to break the silence and open the lines up? Is that my duty, my job, my destiny? lol.

OR.. do I publish this post, and get some chocolate chip COOKIES!!!

SOLD!



Sharing light with Kimmy. Striving to create a path between the present course of events and a new course; leading to new outcomes.

1 comment:

  1. After my cookies, I took a bubble bath, shaved my legs, showered, washed the hair. If nothing changes, nothing changes. And since the only person I am meant to control is ME, I have to be the one to change my actions. Will it work out, who knows!! I just know you have to keep trying, and keep changing it up until it does.

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