Tuesday, September 13, 2011
Letting go of being jealous
No, I am not a soccer mom. In fact, my daughter is twenty, and my husband is thirty-nine. My home-made lunches ROCK according to them. Easier to make it the night before.. they wake up before me!!
In the 90s, I wished so hard that I could stay home, and raise my daughter while she was growing up, or even have a work schedule that would allow for switching schedules to make 10:00 am halloween parades, get teacher institute days, summers off, or the possibility to be a chaperone on a field trip! But damn me for finding a career in the largest Telecommunications company in the world. I mean seriously, I was a TEEN MOM. How did I find a job EARLY 20s in what was the beginning of the world of CallerID/LongDistanceWars/and the smell of ADSL line (data and IP combined!?!?) That job helped me buy my house in 1998. Also paid for school.
It wasn't all roses. Long hours, attached to a pager.. (haha). The worst was that I had plenty of fair weather friends that loved to throw it in my face that since I wasn't able to be a lunch mom, I was a failure, and was a horrible person that I put my work before my daughter. It made me very vindictive, and even bitchier. What can I say? I was tired already!!! Lashing out was my defense. What else did I have at the time??
However today, as I was standing at the sink doing dishes, I feel very differently. Why???
I work from home, helping good people, now find good careers. I have been recruiting since 2004, and working from home for over a year. I cook, I clean, I prepare dinner every night. We hang out as a family more now than ever. We are like the three musketeers. TV, midnight movies, helping and supporting each other. If one of us has a car that breaks down, we carpool, and make it work. Alyssa has Ryan to get away from us...but even then, they are taking me to Pink Floyd tribute show next month!!
Working for the past 25 years wasn't fun. I thought I would regret missing being a lunch mom because someone told me I wasn't as good as her because I had a career. Sadly, I should have known to trust my gut. My parents had really good work ethic, and they passed it on to me-just as Rick and I passed it on to Alyssa.
I use to think independence made me who I was. But now, being here for my family and close friends, is who I am. I am still Kimberly Salvinski Garcia, but I am also Kimmy, wifey, momma, auntie, Mrs Garcia, and Ms Garcia, IT Recruiter, KimmySharingLight, and abutterflyloves.
Find out who you are - by being who you are. Never let anyone tell you differently. Should I plug Alyssa's article here? Nah.. I will post it tomorrow!
xoxoxo - K
Sharing light with Kimmy. Striving to create a path between the present course of events and a new course; leading to new outcomes.