Thursday, February 17, 2011

BLAH - Walk away and turn on music

*********VENTING POST********  (lol)

Annoyed with my intimate circle. I walked away.. shut my cell and work phone off, and turned on Stockholm Syndrome by MUSE (video below)  


Stockholm syndrome is a term used to describe a paradoxical psychological phenomenon wherein hostages express adulation and have positive feelings towards their captors that appear irrational in light of the danger or risk endured by the victims, essentially mistaking a lack of abuse from their captors as an act of kindness.

I am captured by my own damn psyche sometimes. 

I realize that lack of communication that I need help, is my downfall.  I need to lose the ego a bit, and state my requests. Is that a sign of being weak? Is that showing my cards while still in the round?  I don't have the answer.

I get busy, I get annoyed.   Asking for help is not my strong suit.

I consider the intelligence of the people I assume understand that help is needed, and then get even more annoyed when they look at the stress wrinkles under my eyes and wonder when they all turned to morons.

But that's my ego right... wink (hehe)

NAG NAG NAG was all I read, when I RE-READ this.

Who cares.. I am posting anyway.  Thanks for allowing me to show me my venting blah Kimmy side.

xoxoxo



Sharing light with Kimmy. Striving to create a path between the present course of events and a new course; leading to new outcomes.

1 comment:

  1. aaaahhhh! I see we have similar traits....it took sooooo many years to come to grips that asking for help wasn't a failure..I have never completely conquered it basically because I am a stubborn cuss at times who won't give in... :)

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