Monday, December 6, 2010
Walking Away from Internal Noise
Long day at work today. Husband sick. Daughter at work then finals, then out - working out. I got home after a productive, yet tiring day. I was hungry, tired, voice hurt from talking all day. Head hurt from lack of caffeine, and food. Hubby was on the phone, talking in a normal voice, didn't seem sick at all. Few minutes later, he was sick, hungry, dying, and in pain asking me what was for dinner. After I got chores done, I made dinner.
My head was pounding. Neck, shoulders, forehead.
He turned on the game, then went to sleep on the couch. Whatever. I was pissed.
I decided to get up, take the laptop in the other room. I let go of the anger. I snuggled up on the other couch in silence, pulled up the covers, and just decided to blog.
Sometimes life doesn't make sense. I think I just needed quiet time, away from the television, away from the sick hubby. Might go take a bath after this post, and wash away the day.
Walking away, without incident might be the best way to get what I needed, without verbalizing my frustrations. Deep breaths, getting down the words, and letting the day go peaceful.
It's okay to be tired, frustrated. Know what you need to calm down, without making the world know it. In my case, I needed to walk away from my own internal noise. It wasn't healthy, and would serve no purpose to vent it.
Sharing light with Kimmy. Striving to create a path between the present course of events and a new course; leading to new outcomes.