Monday, December 6, 2010

Walking Away from Internal Noise

I think there is something to be said about walking away from drama and confrontation. Especially if you are the one angry, and you have no idea really why! 

Long day at work today. Husband sick. Daughter at work then finals, then out - working out.  I got home after a productive, yet tiring day. I was hungry, tired, voice hurt from talking all day.  Head hurt from lack of caffeine, and food. Hubby was on the phone, talking in a normal voice, didn't seem sick at all. Few minutes later, he was sick, hungry, dying, and in pain asking me what was for dinner. After I got chores done, I made dinner.

My head was pounding. Neck, shoulders, forehead.

He turned on the game, then went to sleep on the couch.  Whatever.  I was pissed. 

I decided to get up, take the laptop in the other room. I let go of the anger. I snuggled up on the other couch in silence, pulled up the covers, and just decided to blog.

Sometimes life doesn't make sense. I think I just needed quiet time, away from the television, away from the sick hubby. Might go take a bath after this post, and wash away the day.

Walking away, without incident might be the best way to get what I needed, without verbalizing my frustrations. Deep breaths, getting down the words, and letting the day go peaceful.

It's okay to be tired, frustrated.  Know what you need to calm down, without making the world know it. In my case, I needed to walk away from my own internal noise. It wasn't healthy, and would serve no purpose to vent it.

Sharing light with Kimmy. Striving to create a path between the present course of events and a new course; leading to new outcomes.

5 comments:

  1. your right sometimes a little space for your self helps..:)

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  2. Yes you are right and I hope you enjoyed your bath and feel better today.

    As for me, I actually have 2 posts almost ready to go ahead of schedule. Wow, I cooked yesterday, ate, played with the pets, watched a little t.v., Tender Is The Night was on and then slept like a baby.

    I hope your night got much better and that today finds you terrific!!
    Jackie

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  3. You're right, the habitual reaction might have been to (justifiably, it seems) complain about the situation and fuel the fire. But, sometimes the most wise action in non-action. Or, it may be confronting the issue, but using a more skillful method than yelling or some other form of aggression. Good luck!

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  4. I feel you completely on this one, Kimmy. My issues and irritations were for different reasons and from different sources, but I feel you just the same. Coming home and snuggling up with my laptop always brings me back to a calmer place. Hope it worked for you, too! ;)

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  5. Well said Kimmy. Sometimes it's just not worth confrontation. It takes away from our positive energy. Holding it in takes away from it too though. I do hope you had that wonderful bath and YOU time.

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