Thursday, October 29, 2009

Meditation is Non-doing - Osho

When people come to me and they ask, "How to meditate?" I tell them, "There is no need to ask how to meditate, just ask how to remain unoccupied.

Meditation happens spontaneously. Just ask how to remain unoccupied, that's all. That's the whole trick of meditation - how to remain unoccupied. Then you cannot do anything. The meditation will flower.

When you are not doing anything the energy moves towards the centre, it settles down towards the centre. When you are doing something the energy moves out. Doing is a way of moving out. Non-doing is a way of moving in. Occupation is an escape. You can read the Bible, you can make it an occupation. There is no difference between religious occupation and secular occupation: all occupations are occupations, and they help you to cling outside your being. They are excuses to remain outside.

Man is ignorant and blind, and he wants to remain ignorant and blind, because to come inwards looks like entering a chaos. And it is so; inside you have created a chaos. You have to encounter it and go through it. Courage is needed - courage to be oneself, and courage to move inwards.

I have not come across a greater courage than that - the courage to be meditative.

But people who are engaged outside - with worldly things or nonworldly things, but occupied all the same, they think ....and they have created a rumor around it, they have their own philosophers.

They say that if you are introvert you are somehow morbid, something is wrong with you. And they are in the majority. If you meditate, if you sit silently, they will joke about you: "What are you doing? - Gazing at your navel? What are you doing? - Opening the third eye? Where are you going? Are you morbid? Because what is there to do inside? There is nothing inside."

Inside doesn't exist for the majority of people, only the outside exists. And just the opposite is the case - only inside is real; outside is nothing but a dream. But they call introverts morbid, they call meditators morbid. In the West they think that the East is little morbid. What is the point of sitting alone and looking inwards? What are you going to get there? There is nothing

David Hume, one of the great British philosophers, tried once... because he was studying the Upanishads and they go on saying: Go in, go in, go in - that is their only message. So he tried it. He closed his eyes one day - a to.tally secular man, very logical, empirical, but not meditative at all - he closed his eyes and he said, "It is so boring! It is a boredom to look in. Thoughts move, sometimes a few emotions, and they go on racing in the mind, and you go on looking at them - what is the point of it? It is useless. It has no utility."

And this is the understanding of many people. Hume's standpoint is that of the majority: What are going to get inside? There is darkness, thoughts floating here and there. What will you do? What will come out of it? If Hume had waited a little longer - and that is difficult for such people - if he had been a little more patient, by and by thought disappear, emotions subside. But if it had happened to him he would have said, "That is even worse, because emptiness comes. At least first there were thoughts, something to be occupied with, to look at, to think about. Now even thoughts have disappeared; only emptiness....What to do with emptiness? It is absolutely useless."

But if he had waited a little more, then darkness also disappears. It is just like when you come from the hot sun and you enter your house: everything looks dark because your eyes need a little attunement. They are fixed on the hot sun outside; comparatively, your house looks dark. You cannot see, you feel as if it is night.

But you wait, you sit, you rest in a chair, and after few seconds the eyes get attuned. Now it is not dark, a little more light........

You rest for an hour, and everything is light, there is no darkness at all.

If Hume had waited a little longer, then darkness also disappears. Because you have lived in the hot sun outside for many lives your eyes have become fixed, they have lost flexibility. They need tuning. When one comes inside the house it takes a little while, a little time, a patience. Don't be in a hurry.

In haste nobody can come to know himself. It is a very very deep awaiting. Infinite patience is needed. By and by darkness disappears. There comes a light with no source there is no flame in it, no lamp is burning, no sun is there. A light, just like it is morning: the night has disappeared, and the sun has not risen.... Or in the evening - the twilight, when the sun has set and night has not yet descended. That's why Hindus call their prayer time sandhya. Sandhya means twilight, light without any source.

When you move inwards you will come to the light without any source. In that light, for the first time you start understanding yourself, who you are, because you are that light. You are that twilight, that sandhya, that pure clarity, that perception, where the observer and the observed disappear, and only the light remains.

Osho - from the book What is Meditation?

Photos and text © Osho International Foundation

Book not to miss, Meditation: The First and Last Freedom, by Osho.
Sharing light with Kimmy. Striving to create a path between the present course of events and a new course; leading to new outcomes.

Sunday, October 25, 2009

Ego Trick or Treat

When you think you are different from the others, better than the others, they are just tricks your ego is playing on you, beware!

You are just what you are, nothing different, nothing better, a simple sparkle in the fire of life.

Sharing light with Kimmy. Striving to create a path between the present course of events and a new course; leading to new outcomes.

Saturday, October 24, 2009

Disappear Inwards

Just witness your mind
and the meditation will be happening.

And once you have got in tune with your being,
you know the way, you know the how.

Then it does not matter where you are.

Alone or in the crowd, in the silences of the forest
or in the noises of a marketplace, it is all the same.

You can simply close your eyes
and disappear inwards.

Sharing light with Osho. Striving to create a path between the present course of events and a new course; leading to new outcomes.

Photo by ThyMournia - Help Me Disappear

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

Sons of Anarchy - Ryan Douglas Hurst

My Wednesday blog is about Ryan Douglas Hurst's Character Opie, on Sons of Anarchy on FX Networks.

You might have seen Ryan on his breakout performance starring opposite Denzel Washington in Disney's mega-hit Remember the Titans, for which he also directed the film's second unit footage. Additional high-profile feature film roles include Steven Spielberg's Saving Private Ryan, the Coen Brothers' The Ladykillers with Tom Hanks, We Were Soldiers with Mel Gibson, Patch Adams with Robin Williams and Rules of Engagement with Samuel L. Jackson. Hurst's 15 years of steady, wide raging television credits include Steven Spielberg's Taken (mini-series, 10 episodes), TNT's action packed cop drama Wanted Emmy® award winning Medium (three seasons, reoccurring). Source:

Without sounding ridiculous, this character for Ryan shows me again the difference between acting, and true UNREAL talent. As I re watch season one, and this season, I can't find words to describe how friggin scary his gift is.

I know I cannot be the only one that gets emotion pulled right from them!

I watch Medium with the kids, and it's difficult to believe Ryan plays both roles.

I wish I was a true tv and movie writer to explain what I feel.  Luckily I have Alan Sepinwall. He is an awesome writer for the Star Ledger, critic, and fellow blogger --->  here on What's Alan Watching.

Please don't take my word on it!  Put the kids to bed, and watch this show.  Enjoy for yourself.

Kurt Sutter's Sons of Anarchy is worth every Tuesday! The ENTIRE cast makes me smile, and the MUSIC is out of this world.  If you decide to watch, I am on Twitter, tweeting away while watching!

Sharing light with Kimmy. Striving to create a path between the present course of events and a new course; leading to new outcomes.

Monday, October 19, 2009

Saturday, October 17, 2009

Amethystium - Arcus

Amethystium is an ambient/New Age electronic music project created by Norwegian producer/composer/multi-instrumentalist Øystein Ramfjord. Under the Amethystium name, Ramfjord has released four full-length albums, Odonata, Aphelion, Evermind, and Isabliss on Neurodisc Records, as well as a collection of works, Emblem

Sharing light with Kimmy. Striving to create a path between the present course of events and a new course; leading to new outcomes.

Sunday, October 11, 2009

Diwali - The Festival Of Lights

Light is Sprit.
Light is Energy.
Light is Wisdom.
Light is Life.
Happy festival of Lights.
India is a country that is culturally so rich that it celebrates one or the other festival almost every month. And most of these festivals have their origin in Indian Mythology and there is very interesting stories about them.

It is the spiritual and religious richness in India that each festival is related to some or other deity.
One of such festivals is the 'festival of lights', Deepawali.
The festival of diwali is celebrated by the Indians throughout the world in a joyous mood with great zeal and enthusiasm. Diwali is not limited to just one-day celebration like many other Indian festivals but it is a unique one for it brings a series of festivals and holidays with itself. Diwali is the festival of worship of Goddess Lakshmi, lights, crackers, cleanliness, sweets, lots of shopping, happiness, togetherness and almost one week's holiday.

The light of lights, the self-luminous inner light of the Self is ever shining steadily in the chamber of your heart.

Sit quietly.

Close your eyes.

Withdraw the senses.

Sharing light with Kimmy.

Striving to create a path between the present course of events and a new course; leading to new outcomes.

Friday, October 9, 2009

Fighting until you cross the finish line

Almost all my blog posts are about taking ownership for your own actions and changing it up by taking self blame for poor choices.  

At any time, ANYONE, can decide, hey, my way isn't working, let me try something else. To those of you that are looking for a change, best way to teach ownership, is to take ownership.

Here is a personal example of my failure, and listening to others to help the one I love. Kimmy.

I brag about my strong daughter, but like most pre-teen girls, besides boys, music, and friends, she had no direction. I knew she was only 13ish, but I didn't want her struggling like me.  I wanted better motivation for education and further education.

My daughter spent most of her pre-teens and early teen life grounded. Yes.  We didn't take the bs.  But the groundings weren't working. By mid first semester of her sophomore year of High School, she had several Fs. Her room was BARE.  I was failing to motivate her. My husband and I were so frustrated with her silence, and all the non communication.  I wanted, and tried to blame the school. It was kind of hard to blame all her teachers, the deans, and principals via phone and email.  I work full time, and have since I was 18.  I don't have the energy to raise a kid, be a wife and mother, and a full time recruiter in the beginning of a recession.

I had a boss that was bold. Alyssa's actions and grades at school was causing my work to suffer. My boss pulled me aside.  Even though she didn't have kids, she said, "Kimmy, YOU ARE DOING IT WRONG! YOU NEED TO GIVE THAT GIRL SOME FREEDOM!!! RIGHT NOW SHE HAS NOTHING TO LOSE OR GAIN!!"  

Now I could have turned my nose up. I could have ignored. But my way wasn't being motivating. I was failing that kid.  I knew I had to try something else, keep changing it up.

I asked that same boss, if she would let me schedule a meeting with the High School during work hours.  She agreed. So I went.

Every teacher Alyssa had, every dean, every principal, came into the office right after first bell. What started out with me asking for notification of her grades, quickly turned into a "bash mom" session.  The grades were available online I was told. Why wasn't I checking? They asked over and over. As the meeting went on, I could see that the room shifted to a kid failing, to it is MOM's fault!!  And guess what...I had to hide a smile!!  Yes!  It was! I was failing her. The teachers now felt obligated to help Alyssa, to save her from mom.  It was so funny to watch the entire room back my daughter, and look at me as a working mom.  It was great!

After that day, those teachers took a personal interest in Alyssa. One of her study hall teachers, on his own, invited the Girls Track Coach to 2nd hr study hall to meet Alyssa.  One permission slip later, She was on the girls track team, running, sprinting, shotput and discus.   She met more friends.  After that, the choir teacher, decided to introduce Alyssa to the theatre crew.  So, when she wasn't performing in the choir, she was doing lights, set up and take down. MAN...I should have taken ownership of my failures earlier!!!!  With the better grades, and the fact she was at school until way after 7 pm every day, she was also going out more with friends.

I had to keep an eye on those grades. I gave warning, I set that kid up for success.  Did she still miss assignments? YUP.  But instead me never checking, it was caught early, and I jumped in the bad guy role.  I called or emailed the teacher asking how I can help.  I think the teachers started pushing Alyssa more just to make sure I didn't email.  Again, being the bad guy brought great pleasure watching Alyssa and the teachers pushing each other to succeed.  They suprised me her Senior Year, she was asked to write for the "South Side Story, (school paper),and published at three or four stories every issue.  Alyssa didn't even tell me at first.  She placed the first edition on the coffee table without telling anyone. When I saw her first article, I couldn't even read it, tears were welled up.  Little did I know she was watching our reaction from the dining room.  Proud mom, proud daughter!

Can you imagine what would have happened if I would have told my boss that she was being judgmental, and clenched my teeth and said, "don't tell me what to do!"  Can you imagine if I had told her, "The reason she doesn't do her homework is because she is so much smarter than the other kids?"  My boss would have told me that I was being ridiculous.

It wasn't her suggestion that changed Alyssa. It was changing my behavior. Changing it up taking the blame! We changed up our efforts, to try something else; because what we as parents were doing wasn't working for her. 

Our society has an excuse for every thing that happens in life.  How much of society is doing the same thing over and over again, expecting different results? How many parents find the world to blame, because they rather blame something, some disease, anything but themselves? Are they teaching their children to take ownership, or find something or someone to blame?

The below post is from my daughter after reading this.   I asked her if she wanted to add anything to my thoughts.  She knows I get judgmental on issues, so I asked her to take a look to make sure I was able to get my point across in a positive manner. I have to change up my own behavior, to better myself.  I have a problem offering opinions and turning that into bashing. I can help it.  I can take a step back and try to get my point across without offending. Take ownership, and make the necessary changes.

To my mom's readers;

To think that this all started over four years ago... At the time I started high school, all I wanted was the typical Disney life. What those shows do not show you, is you begin to fail every class, and end up struggling to find a path that will keep you alive. After failing three classes my freshman year I began to believe that my high school was going to end in me graduating a year late, but the determination of my parents to keep me on the right track and the help from my teachers made it easier for me to continue.

About halfway through my Sophomore year, I found several great friends who helped me on my path to success. Most of the friends that I had prior to that; were the no names, and the people who couldn't care less about the world around them. After that, I found friends whose names were everywhere around the school; from the play cast list, to the people involved in sports. It made it easier because they all had the drive, and the will to succeed. Being around that positive energy pushed me to be a positive force.

I ended up passing all of my classes that semester and every semester after that. I ended up graduating with three credits more than I needed. And at graduation,  I came to say goodbye and hugged a teacher after graduation. He told me he saw this coming from the start, and that he was proud to have helped me in my high school journey.

My parents, while constantly working, still always made time to fit me into their day. I made sure after my sophomore year to include them in my life, and I think that helped out with the family communication. Honestly, I couldn't of asked for better parents. They put up with a lot and managed not to kill me in the process.

I know that most people say that if they could go back they would do it differently, but I cannot help but wonder if the mistakes that I made and the advice that I have received in the last four years would have been passed along to me if I hadn't made all of these mistakes. 

I definitely wouldn't do it over again though. My current journey of being a full time student, and meeting several great new friends and a great guy with goals makes me too happy to go back to high school!

Sometimes all you need is that person or people to catch you when you fall and thankfully I had those people along the way.

Written by Alyssa Garcia.

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Wednesday, October 7, 2009

Dark Place

I have taken too much dark energy.. it takes a while to process and remove the darkness...

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Monday, October 5, 2009

Bob only wanted his parents or someone to tell him "No"?

In The Outsiders, what do you think Randy meant when he told Ponyboy that Bob only wanted his parents or someone to tell him "No"

Bob was the spoiled child of extremely permissive parents.  

Randy remembers a time when he came home "drunker than anything", but instead of getting mad at him his parents "took all the blame and didn't do anything to him...they thought it was their fault - that they'd driven him to do it or something".  

For a child to be allowed to run wild like that, with no consequences for bad behavior is very frightening and unsettling; a child looks to adults to take control and set boundaries, "to give him something solid to stand on".  

If a child does not receive this kind of support when he is young, it is not unusual for him to continue to seek it through his adolescent years and even to adulthood, through antisocial and even criminal acts.  

According to Randy, Bob desperately wanted his parents to love him enough to set limits to his behavior.  

He would go to great lengths in acting out, just "trying to make someone say 'No'" (Chapter 7).

So what is the moral of this post??

Be the example to your child!
As much as we watch to see what our children do with their lives, they are watching us to see what we do with ours. I can't tell my children to reach for the sun. All I can do is reach for it, myself.

Sharing light with Kimmy. Striving to create a path between the present course of events and a new course; leading to new outcomes.

Sunday, October 4, 2009

Think of you

Think not of the faults of others,
of what they have done or not done.
Think of your own faults,
of the things you have done or not done.

Taken from Dhammapada.

The title, Dhammapada, is a compound term composed of dhamma and pada, each word having a number of denotations and connotations. Generally, dhamma can refer to the Buddha's "doctrine" or an "eternal truth" or "righteousness" or all "phenomena" and, at its root, pada means "foot" and thus by extension, especially in this context, means either "path" or "verse" or both. English translations of this text's title have used various combination of these and related words.

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Thursday, October 1, 2009

Butterfly Angel Blur

I am sorry I haven't posted in a few days. We are moving our office from the burbs to downtown Chicago, and we are pretty busy at work.  I miss my blog friends, and since I don't have any weddings to go to, I will visit this weekend!

Here is a beautiful picture for you.

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